Medicine syringes, sleepless nights, and disappointment

So the title of this post sort of sums up my past 4 days.. Lots and lots of medicine syringes were used, Tylenol and ibuprofen have been administered around the clock for the last 4 days, tonsillectomy and Adonoid surgery produces the most foul breath, you can smell it across the room, ok I can. After the surgery I was thinking to myself why did we do this??? I have had conversations with people and forget to end the conversation before hanging up so sorry if I hung up on anyone, lack of sleep is getting to me. I have called to update people only to realize I just talked to them.  I really hope non of the other kids need their tonsils out,I don't know if I could survive. I have found myself exhausted, my house a compete mess, but yet I decided I will keep swimming, even though I feel like I am drowning. We have been blessed to have had a few meals brought in from members of our church,so that has prevented starvation or eating cold cereal for every meal. We still experience disappointment almost daily, rejection from jobs, something else not working out, no sub jobs available. Ugh it just sucks, going through 12 years of school and no job! Really?? I was talking to my neighbor the other day and she asked if we were still in the waiting game, I said of course, she reminded me that The Lord is never late... I was beginning to think he was way late, so now that I have that perspective I think I can still rely on the faith I have and go froward with faith, hope, courage and patience. We have been blessed by simple things people have done but really mean a lot to us, I got a care package from my sister today, yesterday my friend was at Wal-mart and picked me up some diapers, despite all the discouragement I still feel peace knowing we will have some sort of income to pay our bills and that The Lord is mindful of us and he knows us and our needs! Just keep swimming right????