Change

So people often say change is good......Two weeks ago William and I were called into the Branch President's office. I thought maybe William might be released from teaching the youth. But I was blindsided for sure. They wanted to release me as Young Women's President and asked me to serve as the Relief Society President. Usually I reply Yes pretty quick but this time I really struggled. I was sad to be leaving Young Womens and scared to death to be the RS president. I eventually said Yes. I then had to go back to YW's knowing what I knew and try to be normal. Yeah that didn't happen. I walked in and started crying, two of the girls were like what is wrong. I told them that I was getting released, they said I hope you are going to be in the Stake Young womens. Yeah nope to that too. After church on Sunday I still felt like I was off my game. I didn't think I could handle this calling. I already felt overwhelmed and stressed and I only had 5 girls in Young womens. I constantly reminded myself that the Lord wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle. That week was a really hard week, I constantly doubted the calling, I reached my peak of stress, On thursday I felt like a pop ready to explode. I went on a twenty minute run that was some serious pavement pounding. I continued to have a stressful week until on Saturday. My parents were able to come over to a art show that Londyn was having, and I had asked my dad to give me a priesthood blessing. And as he laid his hands on my head all the anxiety and stress over this calling left, and I knew and felt that this was a calling from my Heavenly Father and I knew that I could do it. I felt like where I might be inadequate the Lord would be there willing to help me. Sunday was a day I might never feel again. I remember seeing someones face as they were releasing all these people from callings she was gasping. And as my name was called I stood up, but I struggled to stand up I was wobbly and really emotional, crying at this point, and I don't remember anything else after that point. But the way I felt was almost like the old RS's burdens were lifted and put on me as I stood up. I am excited and humbled that the Lord thinks that I can do this calling. So I am going to go foward with a lot of FAITH that the Lord will help me, HOPE that I will be able to let all the sisters know not only of my love for them, but the Savior's as well, and CHARITY the pure love of Christ.